I have a tradition. I'm a visual person. It is vital for me to write my goals out for the year so that I can see them. It isn't enough for me to hear you, or taste you, or even touch you. I need to see you ALL the time. I don't believe people when they say.. "my goals are in my head." NO WAY. I'm sorry but I manage people. I'm not saying I'm the best manager in the entire universe because I'm not. I'm saying I've worked around many people old, young, professional, motivated, whatever.. and the common thread I have noticed is that people love to say, "I have my report in my head, I'll write it out later." Later never comes and the adage, better late than never is not something I would be proud to say out loud.
My point:
I have to document and post my goals I want to create for the year. It creates a sense of accountability for me. I've no longer entertained these ideas in my little world but have brought light to it in this vast universe we temporarily reside in. It pains me to read something everyday and not do anything to move the meter towards accomplishing it.
I take pride in my everyday being and yes I have days where I am severely unhinged but hey I'm human and what can you expect from flawed creatures except to fail. The difference between someone I want to ensure close proximity to is whether or not they rise when faltered.
I am convinced the most important trait a human being can possess is resiliency and adaptability. Synapses transfer information, red blood cells carry O2, antibodies ward off infections, synovial fluid greases our joints only to empower us to get that ass moving. Hey, what is a visit to the gym without lunges?? Makes sense right?
I have said time and time again I will control my shopping habit, be single, and be happy doing so.
Within that sentence holds power beyond me. I am a sucker for fashion and for a man's presence. Now without one I unconsciously fuel the other.
I rang in 2011 without a man to kiss or credit cards to place into collections. I am PROUD to say I have been single for approximately 4 months now. I have not been single for longer than 1 month since I was 16 years old. I refuse to settle for anyone. I will only accept marriage if I am head over heels, my palms get sweaty, my smile goes from ear to ear, I blush all the time kind of love. For me marriage is a sacred sanction and it is absolutely imperative I have the above happen to me before I am exchanging vows.
Now what I am struggling to maintain is my happiness without a man at the moment. I am learning that although I love myself and won't down grade I am still green at the being by oneself at all times era.
ABC.
Always
Be
Creating
I always create my mood. I always create my outcome. I am in control of what happens to me and how I handle situations. I have never believed that my destiny is a predetermined path that I cannot change. However, I am convinced I have a plan to fulfill. I believe my journey through this thing called life is a multiple choice test. The answers are predetermined but it is my power to choose them. The roads I take lead me to my ultimate outcome, which in the end through the tribulations I face set me up to endure and enjoy the story I've created.
This year I am creating a revised SPM. The essence of my being will be strengthened by experiencing moments by myself. I'm making a commitment to enjoy me and all the shit and glory that comes with it because for the first time ever in my 26 years of life I haven't held my own hand.
Everyone has grandiose items on their bucket list which don't get me wrong is great to have, but one item I know many people neglect to acknowledge is the mere fact of loving and being happy with oneself. Which raising the question, "how can I love you if I don't love myself?"
2011 will be my year to rediscover me in my mid to late twenties.. Notice how I used the word late in the previous sentence.. AHHHAHHA.
HELLO WORLD, HOW I LOVE THEE.
Lets make it a memorable year.
