Eye Opener

I had a very eventful weekend.  Graduation celebrations everyday.  My girlfriend of almost a decade is going into Family Law.  She is witness to awful awful circumstances Child Protective Services (CPS) deals with.  People who are doped up on drugs during pregnancy bringing children into this world as crack heads and meth addicts craving drugs right from the get go.  

I can only imagine working with these people on a daily basis, people who continually corrupt their family tree and worst yet... Bringing their seed into this world tainted from the beginning.  

She told the story how a little girl played kitchen... not with pots and pans but standing by the sink and slapping her inner arm pretending to shoot up heroin like her mother.   

I have never witnessed anything soo disturbing and am very glad I haven't because I would be a completely different person.. I have only met a couple cynical people in my life and always questioned how they came to be.  What circumstances did they experience to gain their attitude and way of thinking?  

My initial thought would be... "Jeez how miserable are they?!.. How can they have no confidence in anything?"  Why are they so mad at the world??

Realizing how I'm so quick to judge makes me feel bad..

Don't get me wrong.. I am a firm believer that we have control over our emotions.. But now I believe that is half the truth.  That only applies to people who come into this world competent without vices as a baby.

Then there are individuals who came into the world loved but just as time passes so did their hope.. Stripping it little by little until there is no more.  Ultimately and subconsciously inviting  diseases and psychiatric disorders of the mind.

Then there are people who are fine like me who experience good and bad but are naive of the Bad BAD and when I hear stories such as this am oh so ever GRATEFUL. 

I could never have the guts to endure what that little girl goes through..  I can only imagine their perspective on life.  

Because people think, feel, and say what they know.  

We can only speak of experience, that is why the best advice is from someone who has already endured that circumstance.  

What people say is a direct reflection of their experiences and life as is.  No wonder God gave us 2 ears and 1 mouth.  I think this is his way of teaching us how listening is more important than speaking.  Which I must say is something I must exercise and tame.

I could never put myself in a position where this would be my environment on a daily basis. An optimistic person would immediately turn sour just from the mere exposure of these hopeless situations.  

Why be a family lawyer??  When the money isn't abundant... 

Deanna's Answer... "I'm not doing this for the money, I'm fighting for the cause."  

My answer... "You are definitely stronger than me."